Welcome to my little piece of the internet. My name's Grey and I like overthinking TV shows and anime. I also really really love music related everything. This blog will be my musings, fandoms, and  whatevr I feel like.
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5, 25, 30, 32

5: 4 turns on- Hmm…I’ve never given it much thought really.

25: Ever done a prank call?- I think so. Yea, but I can’t remember what it was like since it was like 8 years ago.

30: Favorite band- Just one? Probably Fall Out Boy.

32: Someone I love- My mom. She’s done so much for me and supports me with whatever I get up to.

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One year ago I woke up and put on this Panic! at the Disco necklace from their 2011 Vices & Virtues merch. I don’t know exactly why I did. I never wore jewelry at this point last year. I never remembered to put it on so I never bothered even trying to wear it. But for some reason, I went into my desk drawer with all my Panic! at the Disco CD’s, found this necklace, and put it on for the day. Around 10pm that same day, Spencer Smith wrote a letter to the Panic! fans letting us know about his struggle with addiction/alcoholism and recovery. Burned in my mind and in the palm of my hand forever is the feeling of how tight I was grasping the necklace around my neck during and after reading that letter for the first time.

Spencer Smith had always been a person that just made me smile. Seeing him in interviews and seeing him perform live where some of the most uplifting things to me. Watching video of the band and seeing him talk or play always made my day a little brighter. It’s certainly not a “crush” and I still hate when people call it that. It has always been more respectful than that, an idol, and now since that year has past, more of a hero. 

I had the pleasure of being able to see Panic! perform live that following Thursday with Spencer there with them. It was their first show after about two years and I got there with my friend at about 7 am before the stage and barricade were even set up. During I Write Sins, I pulled out a small sign reading “#SupportSpencer You’re on the winning side now” and held it up along with putting my necklace back on that had been packed away in my pocket that whole day. After the show, my friend and I went around to see if the guys were coming out to say hi. We saw Zack, who we had made ourselves familiar to that day while we had been waiting all that time, and asked him what was up. He told us they weren’t coming out but gladly took letters we wrote to the band and my sign I held up for Spencer and told us he would be sure to get them to the guys. A few days later, Spencer left the tour because he needed more time for his recovery.

Over the last year, my anxiety got a lot worse than it ever had been. I thought about doing a lot of things to numb or stop it but thinking of Spencer always prevented me from doing anything stupid. I kept thinking of how he said what he thought was numbing his pain ended up worsening it. That necklace remained around my neck every day to remind me of Spencer. Not only his words in his letter, but even before the letter how he made me smile on the dark days. All the times I felt a panic attack coming I grabbed that necklace. I can’t count how many times I have held that necklace through the heavy breathing and the tears and the overwhelming darkness I felt. But every time the necklace calmed me down. It kept me okay. It’s keeping me okay. 

I know he’ll never see this and I’ll probably never get to tell him this in person but, Thank you so goddamn much for everything, Spencer Smith. 

I’m not very good at writing emotional shit down like this and this whole “entry” or “letter”, whatever you wanna call it probably isn’t the best written thing in the world but I felt like I needed to try for today.

One year ago I woke up and put on this Panic! at the Disco necklace from their 2011 Vices & Virtues merch and I haven’t gone one day without wearing it since.

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    3 things I love

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    4 turns off

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    My best friend

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    Sexual orientation

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    My best first date

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    How tall am I

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    What do I miss

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    What time were I born

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    Favorite color

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    Do I have a crush

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    Favorite quote

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    Favorite place

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    Favorite food

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    Do I use sarcasm

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    What am I listening to right now

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    First thing I notice in new person

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    Shoe size

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    Eye color

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    Hair color

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    Favorite style of clothing

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    Ever done a prank call?

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    Meaning behind my URL

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    Favorite movie

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    Favorite song

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    Favorite band

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    How I feel right now

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    Someone I love

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    My current relationship status

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    My relationship with my parents

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    Favorite holiday

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    Tattoos and piercing i have

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    Tattoos and piercing i want

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    The reason I joined Tumblr

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    Do I and my last ex hate each other?

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    Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

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    Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

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    When did I last hold hands?

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    How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

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    Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

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    Where am I right now?

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    If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

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    Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

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    Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

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    Am I excited for anything?

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    Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

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    How often do I wear a fake smile?

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    When was the last time I hugged someone?

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    What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

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    Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

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    What is something I disliked about today?

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    If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

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    What do I think about most?

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    What’s my strangest talent?

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    Do I have any strange phobias?

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    Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

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    What was the last lie I told?

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    Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

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    Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

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    Do I believe in magic?

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    Do I believe in luck?

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    What's the weather like right now?

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    What was the last book I've read?

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    Do I like the smell of gasoline?

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    Do I have any nicknames?

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    What was the worst injury I've ever had?

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    Do I spend money or save it?

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    Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

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    Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

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    Favorite animal?

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    What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

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    What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

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    What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

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    How can you win my heart?

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    What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

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    What is my favorite word?

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    My top 5 blogs on tumblr

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    If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

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    Do I have any relatives in jail?

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    I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

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    What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

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    What is my current desktop picture?

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    Had sex?

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    Bought condoms?

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    Gotten pregnant?

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    Failed a class?

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    Kissed a boy?

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    Kissed a girl?

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    Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

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    Had job?

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    Left the house without my wallet?

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    Bullied someone on the internet?

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    Had sex in public?

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    Played on a sports team?

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    Smoked weed?

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    Did drugs?

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    Smoked cigarettes?

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    Drank alcohol?

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    Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

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    Been overweight?

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    Been underweight?

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    Been to a wedding?

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    Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

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    Been outside my home country?

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    Gotten my heart broken?

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    Been to a professional sports game?

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    Broken a bone?

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    Cut myself?

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    Been to prom?

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    Been in airplane?

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    Fly by helicopter?

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    What concerts have I been to?

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    Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

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    Learned another language?

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    Wore make up?

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    Lost my virginity before I was 18?

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    Had oral sex?

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    Dyed my hair?

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    Voted in a presidential election?

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    Rode in an ambulance?

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    Had a surgery?

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    Met someone famous?

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    Stalked someone on a social network?

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    Peed outside?

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    Been fishing?

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    Helped with charity?

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    Been rejected by a crush?

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    Broken a mirror?

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    What do I want for birthday?


I dearly wish that people would view their bodies as they view flowers…

Veins everywhere?



Skin patches? Birthmarks?


hella rad~

Scars? Stretch marks?



Freckles? Moles? Acne scars?


heckie yeah~

Large? Curvy?



Small? Thin?



Missing a few pieces?


handsome as ever~

Feel like you just look weird?


you’re fantastic looking~